Mood:  irritated

OMFG!!!! I am so mad... what the heck is it that I am doing wrong??? why do I see no improvement AT ALL????

i have no time left.. seriously. what on earth should i do?

all dark again

i am not feeling very confident about this upcoming 335 test. i don't know whether it's because i worry too much or because i just don't know how to prepare for Dunn's tests. my life literally depend on it. and i do think i'm trying very hard. the rest is probably not up to me now. 

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Mood:  on fire

the last battle is HERE!!!!!

but.. i am so exhausted already...

hungry but no apetite. tired but can't sleep. the to do list keeps getting longer and longer. all those deadlines approaching... ARRRRRRHHHHHHHH

Mood:  down
sitting in this familiar RLM library... cramming for MCAT. how nasty. i need to improve my verbal.. like by a lot. i don't know how the heck i'll do that.

i really need to start living in present tense and stop being reminiscent... next year, well more like in several month, hope everything will be better.

i HATE being stuck here. staying in study lounge seems to be less and less effective. I simply can't concentrate. yesterday was already a day wasted. watching those new year programs on tv and all that. today i haven't done a lot in cell biology either, and it's already 7pm. gosh.. i will seriously bomb this test this way. I GOTTA STUDY!! AND CRAM WHATEVER I SEE IN THE TEXTBOOK.

i want to go home, go back to toronto, and go back to china. i saw how my family's celebrating new year back in china. they tell me to take care of myself here and eat a lot of good food, and don't stress out too much. i want to do that too, but thinking of all those things that gotta be done in such a short time simply depress me. no appetite at all. don't feel the holiday mood either. celebrating new year is a luxuary. savor it.

cell biology, what a pain. gosh. but like what yi xin had said, when you look back at what you have accomplished, they will motivate you to go farther... calc, physics, pchem, biochem. will they really help?

chinese new year

last night i couldn't sleep. i dont' know if it because i drank energy drink or was thinking too much..

the process is all the same... i am where i was several years ago

end up where i had started. if not worse... WTF????

what is it that i hadn't done right or enough?

another day/half day to be spent in study lounge.. hopefully this'll be productive, since i've already used up all my bandwidth for this week.